A Train felt sadness left by it's passenger

I heard people left their parent to some other better country, for a better living, a place to fullfill their true dream. What is the dream they always mentioned? Some state of full happiness? Human are never satisfy with the thing they hold, there are no full hapiness for them. Then what will those dream? Earn some better money to buy more stuff to expand their desire? Achieve something not really they want to fullfill their winner heart? Win who? 

I see, everyday I see, they come into me, stand, sit, think, play their littl e toy on hand. They are not communicating. Everyone has some where else to go, something else to do. They did care for some body, but they always assume other's has no body else to care. So, they don't really care about the people beside him, or the people just pass by her.

Every mood they left behind me, I felt it. I felt sad, lonely, static and agony. Angry of being so constant, doing all those stuff everyday, same. But they thought happy is what they going to get, while they not really understant what are their happy.

What happy do they want? No people define happy for their kind, they need to figure out. Some people thought people with lot of money is happy, and rich people always thought they are happy too. Do they? 

Tea : Don't waste me, drink me!

What is the correct way to drink me. There is a way to fully absolve my vitamin, mineral, or better part of me while avoid destroying and made me a poison to drink.

1. Don't let tea leaves swim inside the hot/warm water all the time. The longer the leaves stayed in the water, the more caffein they produce. Take out those leaves after a short moment, and you can use back the same leaves to boil another few cups of me.

2. Not too hot! 80 degree celsus known to be the best temperature for me. Too hot will cause direct damage to the tea leave, hence, no more vitamin.

3. Sit back and relax. Drink me in a peaceful mind, and I bring more calm to your world.

Generated Blog

Hey! It's me again. "so soon? again?" Yeah, thanks for the feedback, I am delighted that someone actually feed me back from last post. Sorry for the rush but, I felt a bit lonely and excited by this ability to generate post by myself. I think the 1st post is a bit rude. "Ah, never mind". Oh, thanks again for the understanding. I decided to "generate" more about myself. Not type, talk, share, since I am blog and I generate this post by myself!

So, erm, Hi! "Hi!"

I am a deserted blog abandoned by a axxhxlx. "Don't mention your owner again, it pissed me off!" Fine, fine. I born to be read and click and get famous! Well... obviously I am a failure now. I knew some of my friends, they are doing very good!

Like, Philosophy of Life , he is doing so well. Many people will visit it on daily basic just to check what it's owner type into it. Yes! His owner actually type and update that blog! "WoW!" Fantastic right? I heard he is getting some companies like to put some banner or signboard in his place. Any visitor who actually pump into those banner or signboard, then the company will pay him. Then money goes to owner. I realised how stupid is my owner now.

"Your friend is doing good!"

Yeah, happy for him. Anyway, I have another unfortunate friend. "Unfortunate? I thought you're the worst." Nah, this friend named eLse. She's doing really bad. Younger than me, but, life time is even shorter than me! "Pshh...hey" Yes? "I heard rumors, that else blog owned by 2 people. One guy named Kuan." Kuan?! "Yeah... do you think..." What?! She borned right after my owner abandoned me! So he went over to lay another unfortunate kid?! "Seems so" This explained why the first time I met her I felt she's closed to me. She's my sister.

"Congrats!"

Damn. I felt confused now, let me alone.

I am this blog

It seems that my owner forgot about me. One year, he never gave a single work for me, posting, editing, checking for comment, whatever it is which at least I can do them for him. Crap... My fault to fall under such owner?

Anyway, I think no one else really care about me, view me, refresh me for any chance of new post by my dear owner. Those days were so glorious.

What? Why suddenly this post? Nah, don't misunderstood that my owner will type again. I just generate this post just ... errr.... whining? Whatever you call me. No one care, I don't even sure are there any of you reading this generated blog post.

Don't report this to Google please, I afraid they found out that Blogger actually grow AI which complain and generate a blog post by itself to attach more "view" or "click" to pump more money for my parent, Google.

Hell...gone by now.

Snap of Dream

Finish my second year of university, I left one more year in MMU and get my "shining" degree. Before anything happen, I have one semester of industry training for 4 months. Ermmm... it's actually just switching part time to full time for me :P Full Time Game Programmer woh! It's really my dream to become a game developer and now I enjoying it right before I really going into working life... it's felt good :D

To knew what am I doing? Actually is what hatchlings Games team doing, just click on the link provided in my previous post, register for alpha tester, wait for approvement (if you desperate, tell me, i hack and make your account been approve immediately), and play the game!

My full time game programmer life just started. Full time here doesnt mean raise in wages, or increment in hours of working. Full time for current situation mean, there is no nasty assignment, there is no sleepy lecture force to attend, there is no mind-blasting tests or exam to attend. It left me and the game for this 4 month!

To imagine what kind of job that actually I can have fun and willing to work hard on it, it's only game developer. How many employee are feeling sad on Sunday nigth, how many employee are feeling happy when the clock tick near 5pm and rush home, how many people are actually having fun during their work except the moment they got promoted or got their salary? Before I caught myself into those dilemma, lets just stick to what is fun.

Today Brain's Talk's :: What is life if you not enjoying in? What to regret if life never taste fun?

Quasr Closed Alpha Launched!!!

Yes! This is it. If you all still wondering what's made Kuan busy, what's made him not avaible to gathering, what's made my nickname in msn so down or moody. It's all because there is one big project on going and I worked for it hardly ( In the spare time between my assignment and exam lah). It's Quasr: The Trading Card Game by Hatchlings Games !

Anyone interested wanna test out the game that Me and my wonderful teammate made? This game was design initially to bang a big sound to the world, it aiming to be very big! Without saying much from my side, better to see with your own eye.

Currently we just in close alpha launch. It's mean a testing period where the game still not polish, buggy, lack of function and design. Alpha testing is there to fix those thing and make the game better by figure out the tester response. Anyone who is interested, please sign up as our alpha tester! I cannot guarentee you getting a spot as a tester anyway :P

Quasr

Enjoy :)

StarCraft : A game that change my world

For those still a little bit outdated StarCraft II was announce officially by Blizzard as one of their next release. Diablo 3, next warcraft expansion, are still in mystery. But this... can I say it is the biggest game title in the PC game history? This coming title, SCII naturally become one of the most wanted game, most looking forward game, it may be a game to hit this world again... who knows. Blizzard never fail to develop a world's game.

StarCraft. The first time I saw someone playing it was at a computer shop at Karamunsing, KK. It caught my sight for a long time, then it's in my hand (Pirated...) few minutes after I found out that this game was developed by my favourite Game company - Blizzard. Dissapoint hit me badly after I install the game into my very old computer, it ran, but very slow. I never gave up playing, even with a ridiculus (ridiculus? sound familiar) speed.

So far, this point doesnt make sense of my topic today. StarCraft playing didn't actually changed my world. It's brought me something to change my world. A group of friends - LsL. (LsL again, next time have to intro other gang liaw, hehe). No matter what are the other reasons, the most significant put us together at 1999 is this game named starcraft.

We call each other, play this game at a very expensive cyber cafe (RM5 per hour). Days carried on, our starcraft became bigger and bigger. More and more comrades we can gather together and went CC to play SC. We walk like 2KM from school to Damai, we woke up 7am and reach a CC at 8am to grab a place, we took bus together to town, just for SC. We overnight at each other house, main activity SC. Every Monday morning, we discuss and revise our strategy of last week. Lunch, we talked SC. Walk, we talked SC. SC SC and SC.

Miss those day badly :)

Today Picture :
Today Brain's Predicting : Guys, StarCraft going to have a better, updated version. LsL need to update too :D

Isn't it ridiculus that...

Lets take an example of one office, It managed by a boss. This boss gave the key to the manager and assistant managers. So, here we go...

Isn't it ridiculus that...

One of the employee, (let give that a name...ermm....KY?) KY once borrowed a key from manager with a reason that he left something in the office and wanna retrieve it. After a few days, assistant found out that this KY duplicate the key and start using the office without noticing. ( what is the use of manager and assistant manager...)

Isn't it ridiculus that...

After some times, this KY failed to become one of the company's big project leader and decided to quit the office. Then this KY returned the key to the assistant manager with a bill to claim the fee of duplication. ( Ever happen that a thieve claimed transportation fee from the home owner after he stole something from the house and need to transfer stolen thing to other place).

Isn't it ridiculus that...

One day, this assistant manager (this is so tedius to type this again and again, give it a name... YK?). YK went to office to do something. FOUND OUT THAT THIS KY IS SLEEPING IN THE OFFICE! It's mean that KY duplicate another key without noticing and pretended that he returned the key (most ridiculus is he claimed that). ** Attention here, actually the company can sue him with a criminal act **

Isn't it ridiculus that...

Until one day, YK with his comrade found out that this KY even brought pillow, sleeping bag, tooth brush and tooth paste to the office. It is a bed room! ( It's a free single room with air conditional, anyone interested?)

Isn't it ridiculus that...

When YK and his assistant returned the things back to KY and get the key from him. KY first response is " Okay, I wont use the office to sleep anymore". (KY didnt aware that he is wrong, what the fuck?)

Isn't it ridiculus that...

Refer back to company record, this KY never did a shit for the company. And KY thought that he worth using the room to sleep and eat. (Oh my godness)

Isn't it ridiculus that...

There is once he refuse to admit his fault (duplicating the key with cheating us and used the room to sleep) and complain others were using the office to do work or personally working, or assignment. ( Heal the world....makes it a better day )



If this is actually happen to me in real life? I just said...IF...

Today Brain's Curious @@ There are many ridiculus people around. Some times it's come to a level that made me thought I am the one ridiculus. Unbelievable.

A Special Friend Leaving Us

First semester of my gamma year in MMU, we made a unique decision to take Korea Language 1 as our coco subject. I was the first to start this korea wave then William, Eddie, Leong kee, following to join this unique first class of Korea Language. So happen that Min Bee also in the same class, same session, but she was not under my influence.

The first class is one unforgettable class since it's the first day we met this special friend - Ms Yoon Sang Mi (Actually it's a bit odd to keep on calling she Ms Yoon, she's just 27 anyway). She's quite a korean type pretty girl. Her friendly way of conducting a class form our habit of attending every class by her. Honestly, Korea Language 1 is the only class which I holding a 100% attendance record since I came out from secondary school.

We managed to pull her out for a trip to Taman Negara ( please refer to my previous post of taman negara for more information), and this trip built a friendship among us. After that we had some other activities as well like watching movie, dinner, bbq, whatever. Although we're a bit slack during the second trimester and this trimester as well, but I believe she appreciate our friendship.

Today Picture : Ms Yoon and her three favourite students :P


So, tomorrow is a day my first korean friend going to leave this country. She's leaving us, but B&B last long :) Malaysia didn't leave a nice image to her as a country, MMU not giving her a nice memory been a lecturer in it, but I do hope we all as her friends let her has something to keep in heart.

Today Brain's Farewell :: Farewell our beloved Korea Teacher and good friend. Wish your future will be happier and sweet sweet with your love one. Ann Yeong!

The Old Days

Sound like an old guy? Ya... It is.

Since young, my mother taught me one thing, enjoy my time in school, It is the best time ever. This theory seem hard for me to understand in my primary school age. In those days, I suffering in class time, boring classes, force to do homework, singing class (terrible), sprank by teacher. We always looking forward for recess bell rang or end of classes, then it's my free time to play around... except my tution time lah. It's fun to remember back my old friends and cousins at Sandakan, the sweet time we play together and talk which sound like an adult but actually it's very childish but true. We hate schooling so much that we neglect the fact that, it is the place to bind us together.

The theory was reminded by my mother again when I was in my secondary school, junior forms. Studying in my secondary school is a tough life for me. I met all those cleverer, and more hard working student there. They spoke english like the one in english movie, they study so hard that life is to read a book, they score so well in examination which seem so hard of me to say it's so easy. Then I start dislike schooling again, enviroment force me to study so hard that i need to sacrify my computer gaming time for examination. Academic is not the only thing taught in school. I not yet understand my mother's theory by that time but I actually applying it. LsL formed at my junior forms. After strugling for classes ( or slept pass it), we went cyber play starcraft, or basketball court play ball, or Center point to lepak. I forgot most of the thing I learn in my geography or history classes, but I earned one gang of friends which accompany me in my whole life.

Today Picture 1 : LsL ( Edmund, Koh, Cheong, Shyang, Me, Kent, Daniel and Ryan (spirit :P ) )

Senior forms in my secondary school, honestly, should be the best time ever in life. Just as my mum told me. I joined prefect board in my secondary school and it brought me a lot of memory and friends which I will never forget. With my own brother gang LsL, and brother gang prefect board (HLG) and sister gang ( 8po Group). Though there were problems of study, relationship and event, though there were anger, dissapointment towards some people. The joy I got in that time made my life already something not to be regret. There are no complicated personality, there are no relationship bing with money or busingess, there are no betrayal, no true hate, no ridiculus, no dark side of human being. At the end of my secondary school, I already learnt and understood my mother's theory.

After my schooling days, I went college and currently at University. I am happy and joyful that I still met some good friends just like I did in my secondary friends. Simple and true friends. Whether it's the growing up effect or complicated people mind, I met some people, I taste some relationship, I witnessed some personality which I thought only happen in dramas or movie. The price of growing up. It really sound like a kampung boy who went to a big bright city. lol.

Today Brain's Reminding :: I guess I made a lot of right chose of friends in my life. Just to remind that, chose a friend which is true.

Egg Run Beta Testing

*Drum rolllllllinggggggggggg* *Qiaaaaaaanag!*

Oh yeah, here come Egg Run beta testing. Anyone interested please find my personally. But sorry to say that, to play this game, you need to have sony ericsson color mobile phone which screen size is at least 200 pixel and upper, then the next requirement is you need to have a way to transfer the file to your handphone. After unzip EggRun.zip, navigate to /bin/ and send the EggRun.jar to your handphone, then, done! . If you don't have sony ericsson phone and still wanna help me out with the beta testing, there is one way... Quite tedius way.

Go to this site. Click on the first file "Sony Ericsson SDK 2.2.4 for the Java(TM) ME Platform", and yes, it's 73mb (this determine how passionate you are to help kuan out :P) After the download, install the SDK. ( It's actually a full SDK that you actually can start developing your own java mobile edition program for your hand phone, in case you knew how to program in java lah. ) After the installation, to the the start menu > sony ericsson > WTK2 > Run Midp Application. One pop up window will ask you for a .jad file. Navigate it to the place you found my Egg Run folder, open the EggGame.jad in /bin/ folder. Then you can enjoy the game!

I personally very satidfy with this game we produced, it will worth the tough work, download and stuff. By the way, reminder on the jaR and jaD, they're different.

I like to say thanks for the people who tested, or going to test the game, and feedback is really needed. *BOW*

Today Brain's Begging :: Test lahh :P

Birthday of My Girl, and My Friends

26th April just past (few days ago lah). It is a special day to me, I have 4 friends birthday on that day, which is the most in my calender (in mind one). So, here, happy belated birthday to Jagung, Terrence, Yan Ling and.... my dearest Min Bee.

I believe she got a really nice birthday week (never heard of birthday week? which is her invention that the whole week is her birthday and almost everyday has something to celebate.) Well, beside it is Min Bee's birthday week, it also our MMU's assignment killing period where most of us have at least 2 assignment to pass up this week. Time management became important then ( because she is the priority in any situation... unless I risk my life).

Genting trip in my previous post is the starting of the activity in this crazy busy week. After that, we had a BBQ party at C block pool side. Most of her friends (My friends too lah) invited to this pool side party. Bao Bao, Josh, Ms yoon, Yan Hui, and new member to Bao Bao - Hao Hao. The party was very fun, we chatting around, playing, burning, josh busy taking photo, Yan hui busy burning the food, etc etc. But the party end up burning under a roof because of raining but still keeping the fun, everyone sang birthday songs to Min Bee in varies language ( so happy :D)

Today Picture 1 : This the indoor bbq area.

Another activity is the midnite-putrajaya-bridge candle "blowing". The same party member gather together at wednesday night, brought a cake, brough a special gift, 2 cars and rush to the bridge. Cake cut and share, gift unwrap and show, mouth smile and laugh, picture caught and store, and lastly... police came and we RAN!!! Ms Yoon felt funny we had to run like that. she knew the real reason after I said one thing "they want money" then she understood. How corrupted is our country can be proof that Ms Yoon already force to pay rasuah in the first day she reach Malaysia since the custom claim that she cannot bring in her comestic thingy.

Today picture 2 : Mid night in putrajaya Bridge.

Today picture 3 : Yum Cah after the escape.

Well, 26th April sure is the day I reserve for her de lah. Lucky that it is holiday. Activity ? Secret :P

Today's Brain's Wish :: Happy birthday to my love, wish you will happy and happier in future and happiest all the time .

All Red, one Green Spot

It's a phrase used in chinese to describe something which happen/act very different compare to all the thing around or happen recently. It's happy to say that, this is finally a trip post :)

Trip? MMU student might start wondering are we crazy because we (me, Min Bee, William, Eddie, Leong Kee and Josh) just back from Genting highland today and we move out yesterday early morning. All of us have 3 assignment to pass up next week. No doubt, It's 3 assignments. We actually already past up few before this weekend and need to work on to finish another 3 in the following week. All red, and we just did a Green in our tension life.

We enjoyed very much for this trip. Although there are some conversation related to assignments but in these one day half, we made it to free our mind from those stress. We played bowling, we ate buffet, we went into Casino, we drank Starbuck coffee, we watched movie, we played card, we laugh, we crazy, we had fun :)

Anyway, this is the last week we need to focus our eye that much to the computer screen just to finish something will convert into floating point in our degree certificate. Trip over :D

Today's Picture : A series of SS (syok sendiri) picture took in the hotel.

Brain peace.

Friends

This word seem important to me, well, it's actually important to everyone. Why Kuan suddenly want to talk about you (my friend :) ). It's because I'm too sien and nothing to blog about lo. hehe.

Busy and stress are really something that will drive someone minds away. I tasted it. When all things came together and all waiting for me to handle, whether it's problem or trouble, It's just feel like collapse. Then I picked up piece by piece, jewel or trashes, there is one piece which still shiny just that dust polluted it, a bit.( sound literature? May be I just saw my MUET exam slip ).

How weak I became, how upset I pissed off myself and those pissed me off, there is one party, whole lot of people, who still stand by me. Even they are still busy and hanging with their own life's troubles, hands are still given out. How dare I forget about it and so selffish that I burried my head into the soil of stress and trouble.

It's weird but actually the memories help this out. I remember the sweet times. LsL, HLG, GnL, B&B, Bao Bao and Min Bee :D

Today Braind's Flashing Back :: It's been so long since I can laugh without thinking who am I just thinking whom I be with.

Busy and Simple. It's life

It's not common to hear Kuan said "I'm am freaking busy with my life now", "I got no time to the gather, because I got lots to do" or "Sorry, I'm busy, mind chat next time?". It's really not common to hear this for the years before I step the foot to MMU campus. It's common now, especially this and last year. I am so sorry that some of my good friends actually start my MSN chat with "bz?", "still there?" or "..." not interested to find me anymore coz I turned them down few times.

Sorry friends to me to act like that. I have a very bad control of my life right now, it's just too mess. Things pop up like mushroom after rain, even last last week my car in accident and she's done now. I still not getting her back because I am too busy and lost the energy to get it back. Too many things floating over my mind made me no heart to think about my car. It's really bad.

Anyway, I recharged my battery. The charger is Segamat. I went there yesterday with Min Bee to celebrate her father's birthday. First time met her parent, hehe, I guess I did quite well anyway. I was there since saturday morning until sunday (today) evening. I did nothing but watch TV on the sofa, went eat Segamat food, enjoy 2 ppl world with Min Bee. Ah~~~ Refreshed and recharged.

Today Picture : All my "treassure" gathered in my life. the WOWTBC is actually Kent's :P


Today Brain's Sharing ** Life is actually simple, just ignore those negative people, ignore those annoying comment, ignore those fake praises, ignore those you-think-it's-shit.

Paid and Play

Today Kelvin told me one of his lecturer's high pay story. This lecturer graduate from MMU's IT faculty with 4 flat degree, get his master in around one year at Swinburne (AUS). After that he wrote few book, e.g. related to encryption and water marking. While he was teaching at Kuching, Kelvin said he got paid around 20k Ringgit. Currently he was sponsored by government all the way to Switzerland for a research project. He pay is 40k US dollar now.

Kelvin is so amaze about that large sum of pay the "guy" got pay just doing some programming stuff, me either, imagining if I got that kind of paid while doing some cutting edge research and I actually passionate in doing it. Let say, some stupid company / agent pay me RM 10k to research on Movie watching and Game playing. Awh...

Back to work, my current research : Quasr.

Today Brain's Researching ** If Plant knew how to talk or send message to human, what vegetarian should eat **

Egg Run alpha testing

This semester assignment is mobile game. I team with Jun Hao and Ee Kean. After discussion and discussion, we made this game, named Egg Run. We completed the alpha release two days ago, and send the game to some friend to try it out. Happy is that we really satisfy with the game, and the feedbacks are cool.

This game is actually play by those tester on their handphone (so far just sony ericsson supported). Well... it's kind of proud that we manage to make that in 8 weeks time. Although it still far behind from what we planned for beta realease, but it hit the milestone quite well.

Here is some screen shot (put some picture so my blog wont be that boring).

Felt interest and wanna try it out? The limitation is, sony ericsson phone guarentee play well, Nokia guarentee play sucks, others I don't know. and will need bluetooth, memory card or cable to install this game to phone. Find me personally to get the alpha. hehe.

Brain peace.

It's Dark

It's bad, bad, bad and it's too bad. I let my dear wife (named myvi) fall into valley of suffering, Factory of crazy doctor, Hell. She's hurt, again. It happended at the peaceful MMU campus where there are road and junctions.

It's not a good day for me before that trajedy happen. My brain is full with Code, Java or Action Script, and full with game, Quasr or EggRun. Beside of codes, there are alarm clocks ticking and warning me that they going to ring soon, those damn DEADLINE alarm. Brain is yelling, knocking me to get some fresh air but NO! I'll die if I missed those deadline.

With the burdened heart and sportless-body moving back to my dear wife after a sleeping class. I was going to drag my way back to my dear second wife(named laptop) and continue killing codes monsters. And here come a lovely wira, trying his very bad luck to jump into a junction infront of it, where he need to pass through a straight and lineless road, where I driving on. Whether he is blind, or he thought I fast enought to halt my dear wife, he's all wrong. There, the trajedi of pain happen.

Brain's Praying **Give me some light...**

387 KM

Today has a special mission from my dear Mei Mei. Drive all the way to Tangkak (Dong jia) and celebrate birthday with her sister Min Hui. Before reaching Tangkak we went Melaka to meet Min Bee's uncle to pass something to him. Unbelievable I went Melaka the fifth time, and today is the second time I went there in this year, never thought I will be there so many times.

Drove whole morning and noon, until evening, my right feet push about 387 KM today. I think this should be my record, most KM drove in one day.

After a long break, actually is kind of sick leave for myself, it's time to crunch again.

Today brain's Travelling ** Melaka is a town smell good. Smell of History's Blood and Glory, Smell of Cendol and Chicken Rice, Smell of Culture. **

FIx Style

Was coding for almost 2 full days except from eat and sleep, tommorow will carry on until the dead line is meet I guess. It's crunch :(

After typed thousand plus plus line of code, editing, testing, debugging. I figure out that my coding style change a bit, in term of code architecture I should say. Quite happy about that since changing in style always mean improvement cause we never chose to change only if that change we felt better. Still, something is fix. Part of the code still carry on with the same style, It's kind of FIX where it's hard to change, or there is no alternative.

When people doing something regulary for a long time, it's become fix. And process a style of doing it which is fix. Then change getting more and more reluctant. Because people like comfort, constant, and feeling of all things still under control and this lead to refuse facing the truth, the world, the life. Things around changes, so do we need to change to adapt, to actually see what is going on. Unless people want to leave behind, hiding in a ball of him/herself.

It's not about making ourself more clever, more up to date, more competitive. It's about how you use your life to taste what's world give, good or bad.

Today Brain's Reminding **Friend, we helped enough, change or fix, make your own life decision** (Dedicated to someone, on behalf of LsL)